Welcome to my little corner of the internet, where I explore awakening, nonduality, and the unnameable, unknowable mystery. Experiencing the presence of God is not just for gurus and mystics and you don’t need to retreat to a cave or be a saint, it can be experienced while picking up your kids socks, it can be experienced right now, while reading this.
My own 20+ year journey has taken me all the way around the spiritual marketplace. Like many spiritual seekers, I had not found what I was looking for in the Christian religion of my culture (although I always loved Jesus) and spent much of my money on spiritual books, courses, and retreats, hungry for answers and relief from the relentless longing.
At the start of 2006 I had a profound shift in perception, and for many weeks I experienced what I had only read about (and realised I had not understood it at all!). There are no words that can adequately convey the Presence, the stillness, the peace, the radiance that is the essence of everything. I hesitate to write about it, because not only can nothing be said about it, but it puts it “out there” as something for the “little me” to aspire to, as something separate from us both in time and space, and it never is.
Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you
Luke 17:21
While my initial experience, and ongoing deepening, occurred outside of any religious context, in the past few years I have found myself having very unexpected experiences that have led me to return to the roots of my Christian culture. I feel very much like I didn’t choose this, it is simply where I have been led and profound healing has occurred as I have embraced this path. So, as I start to write and share, I will reference anything I resonate with from Garab Dorje to St. Teresa of Avila. I have no agenda for any one path and trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
Awakening is not a “one and done” thing. The things most people imagine about enlightenment are myths, even those (or especially those) who are seeking it. We all have traumas and conditioned ways of being that the light of Awareness takes time to burn through. Probably a lifetime. I’m on the journey too and while on the one hand it’s not a journey at all, it’s just being this perfectly unfolding moment – now and now and now – it is also the incredible raw beauty of this human becoming. Being, becoming, dual, nondual, conditioned, unconditioned, Divine and very human. All of it.
So welcome! If you are interested in exploring deeper, either 1:1 or in a small online group there is more information here. I’m also happy to have a quick 10 minute chat if you have any questions or wish to meet me first.
Warmly,
Heather